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Why am i missing you so much? I shouldn't miss you right? I mean like i know you are not returning back ever, and even if you come here for a lil visit, why would meet me? You are 11:30 hours behind where i live. I know tomorrow you won't be here, with me. But why is my eyes searching for you, why does my ears want to hear your voice; when you have rejected all we had. I'm tired to leaving in false hope, i shouldn't hope for you to return. Cause if you do, I'll see my heart break one more time. Well but, this time it wont pain or sound won't come. You see cause when one's heart breaks like 2 to 3 times nothing happens any longer to it. And you have alone broke my heart 4 times, and that's enough for me...Or maybe not. Whatever it might be, i always wish to meet you at least once. Just to say these words, "I still do love you, but thanks for you I've realized how much my friends care for me. You were right I don't deserve you're love, I deserve much better. Yet I would love to love you forever." 

However, sometimes I feel like cursing you and killing you. My friends join me too. as I said before i have changed. I'm no longer that delicate darling, i'm a different girl now. Anyone can understand from how i behave. TBH, if i meet you i'll put one finger in the air. And that's the end. I don't wanna talk any further. Maybe I'll just be a tad rude, play with you're mind, but that's what i'll love to do. To keep you second guessing, who i am. And if you come to say hi, well don't expect me to be like "ohhh, hey! I missed, can we be friends. Please!" NO! THAT'S NEVER GONNA HAPPEN! 

I maybe sounding complicated, but honestly I am complicated. My mood can change whenever possible. I can love someone, the very next moment hate that person. I love food, and chocolates (specially on those days!). Yes, this is what girls do, and we are happy to accept it. Trust the best thing, you can blame this numerous mood swings on the female hormones, and you have to agree girls though you hate it, you can't live without it. Hardcore feminist speaking the next lines.

**Some of them men think they freak this like we do
But no they don't
Make your cheques come at they neck,
Disrespect us no they won't**